it is no easy thing to find a friend along the way, i mean the friend whose smile extends, beyond a single day... who has a word of praise, for everything you do & when misfortune turns the tide, is still a friend to you. the kind of friend whose attitude is never dark or cold. but who is always loyal & who has a heart of gold.
-James J. Metcalfe


life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you'll burst. but the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life going.
-Nathalie Bernot

Saturday, October 13, 2007

happy vwc day!
(though vwc day has become quite pointless, but still.)

i could still remember how excited we all got over the first vwc day. and a vwc day is on the 13th of every month. now, it is mainly celebrated by us, the sec 4s. who basically have no life. but anyway, all we did was to wish each other 'happy vwc day! (:'. we used to say that friday the 13 will never be unlucky anymore cause it's vwc day. sigh. all those memories.

ANYWAY, on a brighter note, i had a long conversation with oli for half the day. which included me sending her songs, her forcing me to do a relative velocity question, us going crazy over 'the last breakthrough', etc. but basically, the conversation was quite retarded. oh yes. and oli's keyboard went bonkers.

and anyway oli told me a 'secret'.
'aye picky, tell you a secret k, a smile is a curve that sets everything straight!'

i have a feeling i know why she said that. but oh well, i might be wrong. (:

alright. i MUST study.
au revoir!

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

11:31 AM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

just like what claaar said, i should STOP looking at myself with self pity. and can my mind just stop running wild. all those thoughts that come into my mind are so silly.

vicki. snap out of it. now.

i think it's so difficult to find someone to talk to. but at least i've had a five minutes conversation (on msn) with claaar. it helped, i guess. but anyway, yes. thank you claaar. for taking time off to show concern even though you're busy. (:

i think vicki is such a horrible person.

(AHHH) i'm going to sleep all these off. and smile it off.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

11:13 AM

Saturday, October 06, 2007

yesterday marked the end of the school year. and the end of my tk journey. (excluding the Os and times when i've to go back to school for extra lessons)

throughout yesterday, there was an emotion within me that wouldn't get out. i couldn't cry, i couldn't laugh from my heart, i couldn't really scream and shout, neither could i hold a conversation. so i spent my last day like that.

but i didn't expect myself to be so hmm calm yesterday. maybe that was because i knew that i would be going back to school almost everyday for the next two weeks. oh well. but anyway over the past week, i haven't been my usual self i guess. people kept asking me 'why are you so quiet?' i have no idea why too.

ANYWAY yesterday was olivia's surprise party, which was quite successful despite a few leaks. YAY. we had fun, didn't we! though we waited for a few hours before she arrived, but that's okay! and before me, shil and sharm did the balloon surprise, we got really highh. adrenaline kept flowing through me. (HAHA) and shil got so excited that her lens 'popped' out of her specs. and sharm, er she was calm. haha. you see, she isn't the type who will get as high as me and shil. but yes yes! i think the balloon surprise didn't turn out as how we had expected. the balloons didn't even fall on oli. (OPPS) and dinner at jack's place. successful! although she found out about jack's place.

so yes. after the whole thing, oli rushed off for piano. and us, being so nice waited for her to finish. so we sat at macs and started camwhoring. and making a lot of noise too. don't forget that oli's balloons were with us. 16 balloons plus one huge pacifier helium balloon. so we actually attracted quite a lot of attention. after oli came, we sat there a little while more which was a bad idea because oli's (first) cake fell from the table. and you should have guessed what had happened. oli promised that she will finish the (HAHAHA) smashed cake.

yesterday marked the end of fun and slacking. and when i walked past macs today, yesterday felt so long ago. happy times pass really quickly don't they? yesterday before the surprise started, i wondered when will it start. during the surprise, i wondered how long can i remain in the company of these people. today, yesterday became memories. and memories isn't a very pleasant thing, because they will fade away in time.

this is depressing. lynnette, you're so right. i don't only make you depressed, i make myself depressed too. ):

[i'm going to type this part again because apparently it disappeared.]
i've got so much memories in tk. and i'm so scared they'll all fade away. they've got to follow me all the way to canada. i'll always those times when i run and jump around in school, annoying anyone who is either with me or sees me. when i screamed and shouted across the classroom block, circular block or canteen so that someone from the other end can hear me. when i've never missed school on thursday because i refused to miss mep class. when i always go around shouting for nat, and when i see her, i'll just run to her and embracing her in a hug. when i tried to make nat jealous by hugging other people and telling shilbe that i want to si ben with her. when i always sleep in class and never get caught. when i always disturb yixiu during lessons and vandalising her table. when we made fun of jialing and imitated her 'block' action. and her signature smile too. OH YES. when we kept forcing yixiu to take photos. when we kept laughing at mei's pronounciations. when oli bullies me and i can't do anything about it. when i kept going in between kelly and liqin cause i claim that liqin is my darling. when me and mei are always the last to finish eating and that i'll always try to finish faster than mei. when we see the two-sided couple, aka sharm and jialing, together and we'll start teasing them. (oh yes. by the way, jialing always has HUGE reactions whereas sharm will have no reaction at all. i wonder why.) when i panicked like hell because ms johara wants to check our work but i didn't do it. when if anyone walks by 4/6 in the morning, there'll always be three people sleeping like they've never slept for a month. (aka me, jana and veron) when i'll always have my morning bus rides with either lynnette and syazzy. when i'll have my bus rides home with shilbe. when i tried to be bimbotic with lynnette. when i always dread string practices but loved videoworld outings with vwc. when there was mep and i sat on the floor crying, with an umbrella over my head in schubert room. when i bawled my heart out because i failed mep paper for the first time. when people don't find me normal when i'm quiet because i was self-reflecting. when i felt loved because of the people around me.

i used to hate tk back in sec one, because i kept reminding myself that i was forced to come tk. i used to cry at night because i thought i would be really lonely in tk. but i was wrong. slowly, i began to fall in love with tk. slowly, i began to find people whom i can't live without in tk. slowly, i began to dread leaving tk. there were times when i often say that tk was the wrong choice, but that was always because i've had problems and i refused to face up to them. but now, i'm glad that i've come to tk. because no where else would have brought me so much joy and tears. so yes. thank you mommy for forcing me to go tk. (:

to all the teachers, even though i might not be the best student, but you've all been the greatest teachers.

it'll take me forever to type everything out, so to everyone at tk, I LOVE YOU ALL. no matter what memories we share, whether they are good, bad, happy or sad, I STILL LOVE YOU. and THANK YOU.

love,
Vicki the SEXY Sunshine.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

6:49 AM

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

i'm suddenly feeling very irritated. so irritated that i feel like tearing up my physics paper. or kicking something. or just throwing stuff around. to produce noise to satisfy my irritation.

i think there's something very wrong with me. AHHH.

now i feel like crying. maybe it's the lack of sleep. i've been sleeping at 2am for consecutively 2 nights. i better sleep early tonight. i don't want feel depressed for the last week of school and regret it later on. and anyway almost half the week is gone.

i was practically a zombie in school today. i didn't even have the energy to stay awake for at least one block period. neither did i have the energy to retaliate whatever oli said. but isn't this better? everyone can get peace in school. and i won't be annoying anyway.

aiya. whatever lah.
au revoir.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

9:15 AM

Monday, October 01, 2007

the last mep lesson just ended like that.

so yes. i was feeling sad and emotional, when everyone else was like normal. i guess it's just me. but i really felt like crying. there were a few times when my eyes were getting watery, and that was not because of my yawnings.

oh well. there will be no more of my favourite lesson from now on. no more mep lunch. no more of nat being my mep partner. ):

i'm feeling sad cause i really liked mep lessons alright. but all good things must always come to an end right?

OKAY. CONFESSION OF THE DAY:
I LOVE THE MEP CLASS OF 2007. (:
I LOVE MY MEP CLIQUE. (:

alright.
au revoir!

i'll cry on friday. trust me.

vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!

11:13 AM

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